I don’t know if anybody has seen this movie ‘’ BIG FISH’’ but it is worth writing a post..its an old movie release of 2003 starring unknown actors n actresses but trust me guys it is a master piece..I could instantly relate this word to it..
Its an unimaginable thought of writer where a father used to tell stories to his son..describing real life situations to him..the son could never relate them and began to hate his father..its towards the end where the story unfolds itself to a beautiful beginning..
That story left me pondering ,about people who can have such thoughts! Such emotions! Such a thought process and such a way of dealing with life where each and everybody has its own way of settling scores with it or taking it as it comes..the character had the unique way of dealing with life..he made it beautiful! Interesting! And worth living!..nobody was able to understand his way.. he was acting God, making things , characters and stories..our life is also a story..everbody’s life is..but we only perform it and he used to direct it..
I know its unreal but one thing that can be learned from him is that,if things are not working your way..make your way worth waiting..:-) create your own legacy!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
The everlasting fear..!
5th may 2010 was the starting of my summer internship in Bhilai steel plant..though I dint join it on the same day..i was supposed to..today is 7th july and I am still here sitting at home..internship over..whatever time I've spent here, whatever moments I've had ,that comfort, relaxation and belongingness would never return in my life again..I'll miss my parent's scolding, watching television together..fighting for the t.v remote..Stupid discussions of shows as if they were part of our lives..
Though i am living in hostel from past one year but this time it's a different feeling..my MBA would end in june2011..i'll start working, so would never get time to live as family again..tutu is now married..she has to start a new life, in her own way..like she always wanted..I'll miss being a kid..being dependent on mummy, papa and tutu..he he!! i am the youngest..and being the youngest my friend has many.. too many advantages:-)i have had taken care of all of them..
I just pray to god to give me peace and stability and healthy being of my parents and sister. Last year, I don't like thinking about it at all the time..it seems as if it were a bad dream, some other life, some other me and some other's mother..the pain she had suffered is there in my heart ,intact! I wish it shouldn’t have happened but it all did happen and has passed away..I thank god for that!
I wish people around me to change and some changes in me too..I want to become wiser and soft spoken but how can I be that? How long could a man pretend? I cannot!..see..the confusions..it has always been like that..I cannot decide these things..they happen..so its better that people should change, become wiser, less trouble creators so that a healthy and sound mind does its work properly..STOP disturbing me!people!
I’ve become superstitious, idiotic and sometimes behave like a maniac..that all comes out of frustration..of not being with family..of every mistake I’ve done in my life due to carelessness and due to whatever happened last year..I know that particular thing has changed me a lot, my scattered and divided attention towards various things has concentrated and is there inside me in the form of everlasting fear, tension and breakdown, because of whatever mummy had gone through last year..that fear would always remain with me..my head sometimes bangs and I can never guess what worries me..but somewhere in my heart it is because of that..
People close to me know that I was not like what I am know..something has made me that way and that particular emotion is fear..the fear that I would lose someone dearest as my life..BUT all that is over now..i am relieved..
I wish aaall izz well in the times to come..!
Though i am living in hostel from past one year but this time it's a different feeling..my MBA would end in june2011..i'll start working, so would never get time to live as family again..tutu is now married..she has to start a new life, in her own way..like she always wanted..I'll miss being a kid..being dependent on mummy, papa and tutu..he he!! i am the youngest..and being the youngest my friend has many.. too many advantages:-)i have had taken care of all of them..
I just pray to god to give me peace and stability and healthy being of my parents and sister. Last year, I don't like thinking about it at all the time..it seems as if it were a bad dream, some other life, some other me and some other's mother..the pain she had suffered is there in my heart ,intact! I wish it shouldn’t have happened but it all did happen and has passed away..I thank god for that!
I wish people around me to change and some changes in me too..I want to become wiser and soft spoken but how can I be that? How long could a man pretend? I cannot!..see..the confusions..it has always been like that..I cannot decide these things..they happen..so its better that people should change, become wiser, less trouble creators so that a healthy and sound mind does its work properly..STOP disturbing me!people!
I’ve become superstitious, idiotic and sometimes behave like a maniac..that all comes out of frustration..of not being with family..of every mistake I’ve done in my life due to carelessness and due to whatever happened last year..I know that particular thing has changed me a lot, my scattered and divided attention towards various things has concentrated and is there inside me in the form of everlasting fear, tension and breakdown, because of whatever mummy had gone through last year..that fear would always remain with me..my head sometimes bangs and I can never guess what worries me..but somewhere in my heart it is because of that..
People close to me know that I was not like what I am know..something has made me that way and that particular emotion is fear..the fear that I would lose someone dearest as my life..BUT all that is over now..i am relieved..
I wish aaall izz well in the times to come..!
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